No highlights today

I’m disappointed that he didn’t come today. That he didn’t fix my necklace or that we don’t really talk about things that really matter.

But I’m more disappointed in myself in believing that he would come daily without interruption. Just because I have no motivation to do anything worthwhile with my time. So if he comes, I’d feel some what accomplished and that today might have ended well. Or it might’ve been the fact that I miss him, a lot.

Why am I so dependent?